Letter from Daddy:
My Dearest Jody,
I can’t begin to tell you how much your mother
and I love you. I can honestly tell you, you can fall
in love in an instant. There are so many things that
I planned to share with you. So many stories about your
beautiful Mommy, your strong sister and your loving
brother. We were blessed to have you in our lives for
that beautiful hour. But as your Daddy, I can tell you
I am very selfish. I wanted more! I wanted much more.
How do I compress everything in life into an hour?
How can I show you all the wonders of this great world
with such a small window of time? When can I teach you
about football, baseball and all the fun things in life.
I will miss teaching you to ride a bike, playing tag,
tucking you in at night, watching you sleep, holding
your hand, looking into your beautiful eyes, seeing
your smile, you sitting on my lap, sleeping on my chest,
this list could cover hundreds pages. Many people have
told Mommy and I that this is not fair. It is not fair,
you should be sleeping in your crib at home as I write
this, you should grow in to a young man with the love
of your family. It is not fair, for you will never have
your bride and a family of your own. But one thing we
understand is that your are our angel, and god only
gives a few people one.
As mad and sad as I have found myself, I want to thank
you Jody. I want to thank you from the bottom of my
heart. In spite of the fact that every doctor we saw
told us you would most likely not survive delivery,
you fought. You fought to make it into our arms on that
rainy night. With each passing minute you fought to
stay with us. As the time moved along, you fought like
I have never seen before. You put everything and I mean
everything into that fight, until you had exhausted
the last ounce of fight you had within, and then you
sprouted your wings.
Mommy and I have learned so much from you my son…
We have learned to be a stronger couple, even better
parents, more caring friends. We have learned to put
things into perspective. We have learned that things
that we thought were so important to us, really are
not that important after all. We have learned that family
is more than just a word. Time is not infinite, and
it must be treasured. We are given gifts, gifts that
must be cherished, because as quickly as we are given
those gifts, they can be taken away. To live for today
because tomorrow is not guaranteed. Not to dwell on
what you don’t have, but to cherish what you do.
Never to part without telling the ones you love what
they mean to you.
Jody, you have taught me to be a better person. You,
an infant have become the teacher and your students
are all of those who’s life you have touched.
Thank you for being our little boy angel.
I love you
Letter from Mommy:
What a blessing you have been. All of us have anxiously
awaited your arrival since the day we found out we were
expecting another precious child. Though our plans have
changed, our hearts have not. Know that Daddy and I
are so proud to have another little boy. We name you
Jody, which means praised, because it is a name I have
always love, and Michael, which means who is like God,
I keep trying to wrap my head around what has happened
and am trying to accept the fact that you have a greater
purpose somewhere other than here. I have been told
that the Heavenly Father sends each being for a certain
amount of time and that only special parents are chosen
to love a child for only brief moments after birth.
Just so you know, as much pain and loss as we feel now,
our hearts will heal.
I believe that you were sent here to be our teacher.
You have showed us the undying love that parents have
for their children, and you are no different than any
other child. You, son, are an angel and one of our greatest
blessings. You will be part of our present, our past
and our future, and your short presence on earth will
never be forgotten. We know that your sprit will live
on and that you will be in a safe place without pain
watching over all of us. The list of what you accomplished
and what you have taught is so long. Your existence
has strengthened bonds between husband and wife, sisters
and brothers, mothers and daughters, fathers and daughters,
and bound friendships. You have showed us new meanings
of hope, faith, forgiveness, love and so many others,
and you have blessed us with a stronger family tie and
unconditional love that will stand the test time.
In our minds you will always have the face of a baby.
Each of us will picture your mature face differently,
but we know that you will be as beautiful as your sister
I will always long for your baby-belly-laugh, to see
you crawl and walk for the first time, to feel your
soft new skin pressed against mine, and to be memorized
by the rhythm of your small sleeping body on my chest.
Though my arms will always ache to hold you and my lips
to kiss you, we will have peace knowing that you have
been spared from all pain.
I can only imagine if you would share your dad and brother’s
love for planes, trains and anything that moves, or
if you would have the same funny personality as your
sister and your brother. I can only wonder if you would
have been soft spoken like Jennifer and Dad or thunderous
like Joey and myself. Would you share the same sensitive
heart that your sister has and that we love so much?
From this point forward when a breeze brushes our cheek,
we will know that it is a sweet kiss sent from you.
You will be our twinkle in the stars when we look up
at the night sky.
Once in awhile you might hold Daddy’s hand; he
will not know, but offer him peace and serenity. He
has been so strong for us, especially me. Watch over
your brother and sister because they need to know that
you are there. When the time comes, will you please
meet us at the gates of Heaven so that we can have a
chance to hold you?
In my mind you will always walk beside me. You have
filled my heart with joy and love in a way that I never
imagined. Please tell God that we will follow you, it
may not be soon, but we will join you some day.
I will forever be a Mommy of Three, two of my babies
walk and one that is meant to soar in the heavens above.
Thank you, Jody. I love you.
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